4 months. That's how long I've been at the job hunt. 4 months from now my lease will be up. If I don't have a job by then my options become pretty limited. Back to the Army or college full time. I don't like either idea, honestly. But that's what's on the table right now.

But click this link anyway. Because you owe me for all those times I projected positive thought waves in your general direction. And because I'm greedy and want stuff. DO IT!

http://wet.bethsoft.com?fbid=hMqY1KVJsc6

I am so full of FAIL I think it's gonna start oozing from my pores pretty soon.

Well, it's time for me to make a final, serious decision about my future. I've come to realize that I'm incredibly fickle about what I want to do. Given an idea and enough time to ponder it I'll eventually abandon it for something else and the cycle will repeat itself to infinity. My only choice? Run with something when it's fresh. I've just gotta bury all my worries and narrow my vision. I could spend the next decade pondering on this topic and still not come up with something concrete. Hell, I've already spent six years of my life trying to figure it out and I've come up with poo poo. Just gotta pick something and commit. Damn the consequences and the possibility of regret. I'm already moving forward. Finally decided it was time to start working again, especially if I plan on going to college, so I've got a resume complete and an interview for a job already set up about a week from now. By July I plan on having a full time job and a college chosen and hopefully everything will just fall in line from there. If not I'll see if I can convince Superman to throw me into the sun.

Grr. I'm stuck. College. It's mandatory it seems in this world if you want to do something with your life, assuming you aren't naturally talented in some form, which most of us aren't. But it comes with no guarantees. That's my biggest problem/worry. I put four years of my life into college and come out the other side *still* not doing what I want to do with my life. Then what? Grind it out until retirement? Go back and learn another trade? Fuck man. I'm not a believer in all the bullshit about hard work and dedication getting you what you want in life. It really feels like it's just a huge crapshoot. Go to school, learn a skill (hopefully one you like), head into the workforce, grind it out, maybe get what you want, live happily ever after until you die or trudge along until retirement and then you die. Hey, look. I just summed up life. Doesn't it sound appealing? Basically it feels like I've got to thrust myself into something blindly again and hope for the best. That's really what I did with the Army. I tried not to think about the long term consequences. It was just a "Go with it, slapdick!" type move. In any case, this long winded rant was supposed to inform all you people out there of my newest thought, that being going to DeVry and learning game design and whatnot. This is idea #3,138. The only decision I've made with my life that has stuck was the Army, because I signed a contract and there was no way out of it. Heh. It appears that I'll have to force myself into another commitment similar to that and just... ride it out. It's that or work at JCPenny for the rest of my life.

I can count the times I've actually gone outside for an extended period of time (an hour or more) in the past month on one hand. I caught three movies, a playoff game, and headed to NC for my yearly visit. Now I'm contemplating getting a cat whenever I gain a regular source of income, which will most likely occur before my birthday this year, just so I don't run the risk of something unexpected happening. I have nothing interesting to report unless you feel like listening to me talk for hours on end about video games or how many times one can wear a pair of underwear before they consider them dirty.

Anyone have plans to go to the Ren Faire in Irwindale? Just asking.

I don't think I'm ever going to college. There, I said it.

I don't know what the sky looks like anymore. This is because I spend spend half theday asleep and the other half playing video games, surfing the web, and watching television. It'll get better before it gets worse thanks to a free 14 day Netflix trial that I forgot to cancel, so now I've got a month of it. And guess what? A host of their movies stream *directly* to my Xbox 360. Yep. Also, the free 30 day Gamefly trial doesn't help my situation much either. I literally have no idea what day it is most of the time. Soon I will be broke and all of this will be nothing but a fond memory. A very, very fond memory. Suck it life!

I continue to be saddled with the most unreliable friends anyone could ever have.

I caught Watchmen at IMAX at 3:20 AM on opening day. I was disappointed to say the least. Anyone else feel the same way?

Oh a whim (and because their commercials won't stop playing ever) I went to eHarmony.com. After taking twenty minutes of my incredibly precious time to fill out their survey they were kind enough to inform me that they can't help me match with anyone ever on any planet in any universe and that they were sorry I was such a malformed freak of nature.

They don't advertise that in their commercials.

If you've found your Muse already let me borrow it before you use it up.

Thank you.

Crap, man. I'm overwhelmed. I have so much freedom it's ridiculous. A lot of the shit I've been wanting to do I've been doing. And most of it is pretty simple. From bopping around on Xbox Live, to downloading music, to buying shit I could never afford and/or don't need but want because I think it's cool. I'm livin' the life, buddy. But I've gotta wind things down here pretty soon. I've been on something of a spending spree, waiting to sit down and budget after I made all my larger purchases. Stuff like furniture and appliances and so on. Well, that's pretty much done. My furniture is here and I've put it together and I don't really have anything else large to buy. I've gotta get down to the nitty gritty and get pots and pans and a garbage can and all that little stuff you never think about until you need it and you find yourself cursing because you don't have it. That stuff. Thankfully there's a Wal-Mart nearby so I can get that whenever I want.

That's it. I'm all set up. Who wants to visit? ::grin::

No, I haven't fallen off the face of the planet. I've just been busy. Sort of. It took me about 3 weeks to find a decent place. $850 a month for a single about a block from the beach and within walking distance of pretty much everything else I need. Grabbed myself a new computer, 32 inch LCD flat screen, got some cable, internet, Xbox Live, the works. The only thing I'm lacking now is furniture. Hopefully that'll come next week. Only need about 4 pieces. Place is pretty small. Once that's done... Well, we'll see what comes next, eh?

So, uhh, since I'm gonna be a full fledged civilian that can do whatever the hell he wants in two weeks I have only one question...

When are all us RoH folks gonna get together again, huh? What, we just gonna wait for another one of us to tie the knot? That could take FOREVER. I demand a party!

For example, sponsors that insist on putting their name on shit. Like arenas. And college bowl games. This aggravates me. I get it. You're sponsoring the arena. I DON'T FUCKING CARE. What the hell ever happened to naming shit after people that actually mattered and made a difference? The ARCO Arena, The American Airlines Arena, The AT&T Center, The FedEx Forum. It doesn't end. And how stupid does the San Diego County Credit Union Poinsettia Bowl sound? No, I didn't make that up. Nor did I make up the Chik-Fil-A Bowl. Or the Meineke Car Care Bowl. These exist. And for that reason I am unhappy.

Alright, so the day is nearing where I bid farewell to the Army and hello to everything else that isn't the Army. Naturally the biggest challenge I face currently is finding and moving into an apartment. And seeing as how it's my first apartment I figure I could use a little advice. Any pitfalls I should look out for? Any amusing/insightful anecdotes about your first apartment that could help me? Any expenses I should avoid? Must haves? Don't forgets? Bring 'em on! I could use the help.

It's only appropriate that I report on the nothing I did for Thanksgiving weekend. Though really, I can't complain. I had a restful four day weekend before pay day. It was kind enough to snow on Thanksgiving and upon realizing that I have less than 30 working days left in the Army I started working again in earnest on my standup routine. I really need to buckle down this last month and organize my material into some tangible three to five minute sets. Which reminds me. I need a watch.

1. Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey?
If you're reading this then the answer should be pretty obvious.

2. Would you do meth if it was legal?
Uhh, no. It's meth.

3. Abortion: for or against it?
I think there are certain situations, i.e. rape, that abortion should be considered as a viable option, so I suppose I lean toward pro-choice.

4. Do you think the world would fail with a female president?
Uhh, no. Not in the slightest. It's called progress. Can't go wrong with progress.

5. Do you believe in the death penalty?
With all the new forensic techniques coming out these days it seems more and more likely that there are people on death row that shouldn't be there. Personally I think executing even one innocent person is an atrocity. Plus I think it'd be ten times worse to serve a life sentence.

6. Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
Of course.

7. Are you for or against premarital sex?
I'm not religious, so I have absolutely no problem with it.

8. Do you believe in God?
I don't believe in any of the Gods organized religion has thrust upon me. I do however believe there has a be a higher power, something greater than myself. As to the specifics, I have no idea and figure I'll find out later at some point.

9. Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
Yes. All the nonsense about the sanctity of marriage stems entirely from the church, that claims to love all yet insists on discriminating against gays and lesbians. Considering how many straight couples out there are doing the institution of marriage a disservice I don't think allowing two people that love each other, no matter their sex, is going to taint it further.

10. Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?
Well, America wouldn't be America without immigrants. But the way I see it America's like a balloon. You need air to inflate the balloon, but what happens when you use too much? It explodes. It's the same way with immigration. We need to cap and control it much better than we do now.

11. A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?
Nope.

12. Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?
Uhh, no.

13. Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too complicated of a question to be answered here succintly.

14. Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?
No. I think if you want to die then you should have the option to choose how you go.

15. Do you believe in spanking your children?
Eh. I was spanked and I hated it. But since I'm not a parent I can't really comment. It might be effective on some children, less so on others. I don't have a problem with other people doing it though.

16. Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
Sure.

17. Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?
Uhh, a third party that better represents my interests.

18. Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
Pfft. No.